DAMUDPHUD...STUDENT FOREVER

MOVED

2005-09-09T21:02:00.000-04:00

I've decided to make a change to Xanga
So for my faithful readers...
http://www.xanga.com/damudphud

Psych

2005-09-08T22:51:00.000-04:00

So for those of you who don't know, I've started back in the clinics now.
I'm almost 5 weeks into psychiatry and I have to say that there is such a need for Jesus in America. Seeing people in shambles because of the emptiness and pains of their heart makes me understand the weaknesses of my own self. Although my heart and soul bear very little resemblance to Christ, I know that it is his grace and blessing that has kept me out of the psych ward. A little Jesus can go a long way for those who've been torn and tattered in the mind.

A Blur

2005-06-08T01:56:00.000-04:00

Sometimes life seems like a real messy blur. I feel like time passes by so quickly, even to the point where I feel like episodes in life start to repeat themselves. This worries me, because I know that a lack of "purpose" is the culprit of spiritual and mental delinquency. Finding myself in the later 20 age bracket now, I feel a sense of
anxiety about life. Is this life just a repeating cycle of reading, tests, deadline, paychecks, and bills? It can't be....
Even within the church.... things seem to be repetitive... almost dejavu like. Bible study, retreat, revival, sunday worship... they come and go and come again. But do they change me? Do they make any eternal lasting effect?
Why do we live the christina life? Why do we serve at church? Why do we do the things we do? Good questions with difficult answers. I really don't want to be a Christian who is a Christian by default; or a Christian who follows the motions for self centered reasons. Sometimes I question it... somtimes I question the hearts of others as well... but ultimately I realize the need for accountability and self-evaluation.

1 John 5:14

2005-05-03T22:50:00.000-04:00

You know... God answered my prayers today. I took a little more aggresive approach than normal. Instead of asking for my need and adding " if it is your will", I seriously contemplated whether my prayer would be in accordance of his will.
For instance this morning... I was kind of late and for those of you know (to save money) I've been parking in the ghetto back streets of North Philly. Anyway, usually if you get there after 8 am, you can't really find a safe place for your car. I was rolling into North Philly at around 8:50, and I was worried that I'd be searching forever for parking. I prayed to the Lord , " Father, please give me a place to park. This would allow me to be on time to work and be a good example of punctuality and responsibility, and since my co-workers know I'm christian, this would be glorifying to you. Is this not in accordance of your will? Please Lord help me ."
The result of my prayer was that as I pulled into my first choice of back street alley, a car was pulling out of a treasured parking spot, giving me a dream spot for the day. Amazing right?

To eat my breakfast this morning, I place my retainer in the brown paper bag. (Why would I do this? Am I and idiot? Apparently so.) Of course I forgot to put my retainer back into my mouth after I was done eating, and of course, threw the paper bag into the trash. I actually didn't realize that I didn't have my retainer until about 6 pm, as I was playing basketball with church peeps at a gym that was 40 miles away from Temple. My absentmindedness is astounding. Instead of panicking, I left it in the hands of the Lord, and asked the Lord to protect my retainer. "Lord, please keep the trash people from remembering to take the trash out of my office today. The retainer is expensive and I don't want to be wasteful. my profligate actions are clearly not glorifying to you." I felt amazign peace after this prayer and decided to drive back to Temple after basketball aorund 9 pm.
Guess what? I drove back to my office tonight and there it was in the trash - The brown paper bag.
We serve an amazing God.
I'm gonna keep prayin. You should too. (And yes... even in the small things)

Jubilee

2005-04-29T23:09:00.000-04:00

So tonight was a nice night for revival. I must admit my heart was yearning for some spiritual sustenance, and I feel that I got it. Church peeps and I went to the Jubilee Revival in Consho and got to hear the eloquent Dr. Lim speak on Psalm 73. A combination of seeing Edmund playing drums for the praise team, and bumping into Hopkins peeps (Julie, Pastor Iggy, Jimmy Choi) was truly a spirit lifter.
I forgot how much I missed Hope Chapel and my days back in baltimore.

Quote of the night....
" Jesus kicked the "hell" out of death, and thus there is no reason to fear anymore." .... hehehe... literally.

Walk away message: Even if you feel like your faithfulness and loyolty to the Lord seems to be unnoticed by the Lord, remember that it is not this life that you live for, but the next. It is the reality of the future that gives us peace and confidence in the present. (The eschatological view)

Moonie. I'm not mad anymore. Your service to the Lord and for the brother of Jubilee is truly a blessing to all.

peace out.

Prayer is Needed

2005-03-24T12:40:00.000-05:00

Friends... please pray for my friend's mother who is struggling with recurrence of cancer. Pray that the Lord would heal her, comfort her, and strengthen her.
Lets pray for my friend as well who needs to be strong for her family right now. I too have been through a similar situation when my mother battled cancer nearly 10 years ago, and know that it is just as hard to see a person you love suffer as it is to suffer yourself. The strength must come from God. Lets pray that she finds God ever deeper in this ordeal.

Friends

2005-03-21T22:40:00.000-05:00

You know its amazing, how God shows you at the most crucial times in life that He is there for you. It's also amazing how God can reveal himself to you through the voice of a friend. A friend called me yesterday out of the blue, and I must say that I felt the warmth of Christ that I have not felt from a friend in awhile.
For those of you who love your friends, love your family; love them now... not later.
Even the slightest word, the most trite comment could move mountains in the heart of your love ones.
Lets be movers of Christ's spirit today.

Stupid Driver

2005-03-16T22:35:00.000-05:00

True Story:
A young man from pennsylvania was pulled over by a policeman late last night. He was immediately accosted and was required to take a breathalizer test. At first this man
was confused why he was pulled over.
This guy's license plate was "TIPSY".
HAHAHAHA....
The guys said he felt dumb, but didn't realize that TIPSY would insinuate that he would drink and drive. He just wanted to let people know that he "loved to party and drink".

----------- wow....absolutely amazing.

Fate?

2005-03-09T00:26:00.000-05:00

Do you deem it odd that a person keeps thinking of another person that he only interacted with at a surface level many years ago? He denys all other opportunities of courtship and companionship, because he sets the standard to the woman that he knew in a different stage of his life. He yearns for her smile. He wants to serve her and make her happy, and yet he does not even know her intimately. Some may say that this is superficial infatuation, but I beg to differ. This is not about superficiality, but it is about an innate attraction that extends beyond comprehension or logic. Even at the love skeptic age of 26, I'm still a believer.

research

2005-03-02T10:03:00.000-05:00

research is getting pretty tedious now. i think i'm ready to go back to the clinic.
actually, i am taking a clinical class, where one day i pretty much act as a student in a third year family medicine rotation. Yesterday a patient I was seeing was really frank with me. He was a 68 year old man who said that he and his wife had sex everyday. (This man is 300 lbs, hypertensive, heart attack victim, diabetic, and hypercoagulable.) He complained that he thought his lipitor was taking away from his sexual performance. He said he wants to have sex more than once a day, but he can't do what he used to do before he started taking so many drugs. He wanted to be prescribed viagra.
wow.... this guy is a horse. I gotta give him props for never losing the passion for his wife.

life is a stage

2005-02-20T00:37:00.000-05:00

life is a stage for us all...
let every moment be your debut to reveal the talents God has given you.
let it be a time where the director of heaven and earth, God himself, can produce his masterpiece through your gifts. Not only is he the director but the most important person of the audience.

PhD by August

2005-02-13T11:40:00.000-05:00

It's amazing how quickly time passes. It's kinda scary actually. It seems like yesterday I was saying bye to baltimore, and moving on to the city of brotherly love.
It took some meditated efforts to realize that I indeed have been in philadelphia for the past four years. Wow.... I've been in philadelphia almost as much as I was in baltimore. This august I will be finishing my PhD, only to keep studying to finish my MD. Its been a long road, but I must say I feel a sense of accomplishment and joy, knowing that all my hard work will come to fruition soon.
Lets keep our head up folks...

My brother's teeth

2005-01-24T22:53:00.000-05:00

did you know that my little brother is missing two teeth from hiw bottom teeth. He's always had big gaps in between his teeth. I was always jealous because he never had to floss, but now we know that he was born with a little less. Poor little guy. Due to this abnormality, he has an overbite that will only worsen if he corrects his teeth as is. Teh orthodontist suggested pulling teeth and making both sets of teeth match.
I'm glad I was born with normal teeth. My teeth correction process only lasted like 7 months.

To the Eagles Faithful

2005-01-23T22:48:00.000-05:00

To all of the faithful Eagles lovers...
Your dedication and faithfulness through thick and thin has finally been retributed.
This is our year. It was meant to be. Like the Israelites we have meandered in the desert for our due time, but now God will give us our promised land.
Donovan will lead us and we will follow. TO of no TO, the pats are going to be in for a huge surprise. The eagles are hungry for the the trophy and final prize, and no stinkin militia are going to get in the way.

Anyways... lets just savor the moment and enjoy this historical moment.

We're in business

2005-01-19T22:28:00.000-05:00

So its pretty much in the bag. I am going to be finishing my PhD work this summer just in time to start third year. ( A year early baby! ) However, there are some drawbacks that come with this early return. I won't be able to do praise team anymore. :(
And of course, I won't be able to keep as sharp of lookout over my brother as I have.
This may be good, because I am quite the over-protective/strict brother. This may be the distraction prescribed for the anal-retentive stronghold I have over my younger sibling.

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Today was frustrating. Two guys at work came up to me and said, " hey did you know Jesus was married to Mary Magdalene?" Another guy quickly followed, " oh and there is also a testament that was oh so "keenly" kept out of the bible that testified that Jesus was a jealous boy who even killed another boy in the town" I tried to reach out with something to say. I think they were amused by my temporary stillness and hint of exasperation. And then... all I coiuld say was, " That's a bunch of BS." "NO!, it's true !", they would reply. And like a baby crying culprit, I kept on replying, " NO. NO. NO. That's BS dude. That's such BS" I really wish I had something more eloquest to say, but everything I read about the Magdalene theory and the Da Vinci Code was locked in my m ind somewhere unattainable for intellectual use. Arrgh..... I'm worthless.

Christmas with the McGinleys

2004-12-25T23:24:00.000-05:00

Xmas was very relaxing today. Traditionally, we would go to church on Xmas, but today we decided to just stay at home. Today, home was with my sister, brother, brother in law, and niece. We watched movies, sang songs, watched the lakers game, and ate a really nice dinner. This Xmas was special, not because we relaxed at home or ate a nice meal, but because it was the first time in many many years I got to say "Merry Xmas" to a certain person in my life. A Xmas such as one today, seemed an impossibility for much of my life. Today was special. I believe just as Christ was born on this day, so are new begginings and new endeavors. Lets start over... please let us start over.
In a time in my life where resentment and discontent knock at my doorstep, I look to the shepherd and receive these new gifts of signs of Him. I follow thee, and ask for thee to rescue me. I pray that You could be as clear to me everyday as You were to me this morning.

To Obey is Better than Sacrifice

2004-12-19T22:00:00.000-05:00

A tune that flutters in my mind lately is the Keith Green song "To Obey is Better than Sacrifice". Being a song inspired from scripture, it is easy to be inspired to obey the Lord's commands; to be driven to do the right things. However, I think the new realization I've been given of late is the fact that obeying the Lord means to sacrifice much. The act of denying one's self, taking up the cross, and following the Lord... is this not sacrifice, and is it not obedience.
In today's sermon, pastor Oh, a missionary to Japan, rallied us by saying.. "give til it hurts". What a challenging message... In a world of complacency, materialism, and superficial competition, Christians need to learn how to share, to reach out beyond their comfort zones, and care for the lost souls of the world. The first heart to change is myself. Being a person who feels utterly overwhelmed with responsibility and fiscal burden to begin with, can I reach down deeper and have compassion not only with my investment of time, but also with my money?

God help me to let go. Help me to stop running the rat race of fiscal satiety.
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Eagles you looked bad today, but I still love you.
TO... take a break.
Mcnabb... you saved us today.

2004-11-28T01:29:00.000-05:00

Be faithful to the Lord in all you do. The struggles you triumph today will evidence as spoils of war for tomorrow. Be strengthened in Him.
Amen

Golf

2004-11-03T23:08:00.000-05:00

Shot 44 on the back nine.... Pretty good eh?
I just felt good stroking through those shots.

no time

2004-11-01T13:41:00.000-05:00

going to new orleans next week for the american heart association conference... so much work to do... so little time.

Friday Night

2004-10-09T14:14:00.000-04:00

Pastor Alex led a discussion on the reliability and viability of the bible. It was truly fascinating. The historiscity of the bible and its reliability is astounding. From the qumran Dead sea scrolls to the fact that there are over 24,000 manuscripts of the bible, is a testament to the "specialness" of God's word from any other historical text.

After a failed atempt to go see a movie, S,Y,E, and I went to Ruby's to get some appetizers and drinks. (Jacob wish you were there...) Anyhow.... it felt good to get out on a friday night.

Lose Together and Lose Together

2004-10-03T02:54:00.000-04:00

Moonie and JH invited me over for dinner. Monkey and Vick were also there. Vick had driven up from JHU and Monkey is in town for another 3 weeks for a Urology elective.
We had loads of fun, and JH cooked an amazing meal. As the meal dwindled away, Moonie says, " Hey you guys wanna play a game...maybe some texas hold em". Most of us were thinking friendly 5 dollar buy in amongst friends in the benign comfort of Moonies Loft Apartment. However, we found ourselves(all five of us) sitting at a 2/4 Texas Holdem table in Atlantic City at 1:00 Am in the morning. The table was 10 people, and we were 1/2 of the players. There is no way we're gonna come out of this as losers (as a group)... one might think.

RESULTS

Albert buys in with $40 and quickly increases to$60 with a straight and a good pair. However, on one crucial hand, he practically goes all in with flop flush. As the river was dealt, a amateurish young white girl calls all of his raises and seemingly is falling into Albert's trap. However, the cards are shown, only to reveal that Albert had been beat by a full house that she caught on the river. It was a $120 dollar turn. Albert now had $5 and the girl now had close to $150. Albert realizes the luck is not in his favor this night, and cashes in his $5 so he can at least get a drink later.

Monkey..... starts with $50. Buys an additional $20 as the game progresses. He also gets smashed with a full house on the river when he had a flush. The rest is history. The young white girl in the corner who took all my money took all his too.

Vick... starts with $50. Buys an additional $15 as the game progresses. She gets jack all night, and is stripped bare to nothing by the same girl who raped monkey and albert.

JH.... $50 start..... lost it all...... but slowly. Good job JH.

Edmund...$50 start.... was almost at $70 by the time Albert was knocked out. He should have cashed in, but he was greedy. He lost all his money with in 40 minutes.

At a table where half of the players are of the same party, you'd think there would be some good luck in somebody's hand. However, it was not the case on this night.

We all lost.... but we could all smile about it and realize that the young white girl in the corner just had it going.

We'll be going again tomorrow... hehehe...just kidding.

It was a night to remember....

Phillie Phan PHILE OUT

2004-09-29T23:38:00.000-04:00

wow.... what a boring game....
what non-enthusiastic fans.
This game had like only two hits by the 6th inning. People were cheering EAGLES cheers. Is that sad or what? Well... i mean the EAGLES deserve cheering in any venue, but its sad that Phillies fans are so disinterested. I must say that if it wasn't for good company, good food, and a few beers.... that game would have been not worth it. The seats were great... right along side placido palonco at third base.

Well... I thank the Lord anyway for giving me friends who can take me to expensive sporting events.

Peace

Show me da money

2004-09-29T10:24:00.000-04:00

I realize that I have a very good job. Although it is only part time, Kaplan is now paying me $33/hr to sit and critique future MCAT teachers. Pretty nice eh?
MD/PhD student by day and Kaplan teacher/trainer by night. I kinda like it. Of course I feel bad the nights I work. Andy is home all alone by himself until late. Hmmm.... I guess I baby him too much. He is 16 years old.

I'm going to a baseball game tonight, courtesy of Kwang and Beck again...
God has truly blessed me with friends who have sports connections. Thank you God.
I believe we'll be sitting right behind home plate too. Tell you all more about it after I get back.

Feeling Not So Good

2004-09-19T22:45:00.000-04:00

I feel the pus filling up into my sinuses. I feel like there is a halo of cotton around my head or like I'm underwater. Even after a pack of azithromycin (zpak) I am still being haunted by bacteria. I have a hacking cough and a runny nose. I feel like poop. Hopefully a good night's rest will do the trick. Good night cyberworld.

The Lord's Day

2004-09-19T15:26:00.000-04:00

Father...
thank you for this beautiful day. Thank you for worship. Thank you for the peace and love we have in you.

Poker Party....

2004-09-16T11:45:00.000-04:00

So Jacob came down from NY. Him, his gf, YJ, and I had an intense night of poker. 5 dollar buy in initially, and of course I was eliminated early and had to buy in with another 5 dollars. I ended the night with 6.95, which means I was about negative 3.05. Not too bad considering how quickly I lost my first 5 dollars. I must say... YJ ... you're impressive. I can't say that you are a very strategic player, but I think God has gifted with you with inherent poker sense. With a pair of nines, going up against my two pairs of A and 8, you bet almost 75% of your pot. This does not make sense. What person would bet almost their entire pot, hoping that a 9 will pop up on the river. Alas... you, my friend did... and you were victorious. Who told you to call? Who told you that the 9 was gonna flow outta the river like that? Beelzebub? I think so.
God brings humility to those like me ... :) I guess because he loves me.
All in all, I came out second.. second to YJ that is. Jacob could have done well, but his GF lost her money quickly and was given two mercy donations from her bf. Dumb move Jacob... she lost all your money. Of course, with your skills, you still could have done well, but you underestimated YJ's super natural "deal with satan" power poker skills, and you were manhandled to a measly $2.95 finish. I'm sorry bro...
A three poker book, hours of online party poker, and "talk the smack" veteran like you couldn't pull it off....
As I say..... its almost all luck.

Eagles and Tonics

2004-09-13T23:38:00.000-04:00

So I went to the Eagles opener yesterday. I must say it was a great time. Thanks kwang and Beck. It was a day of firsts. first time every at an nfl game, first time seeing jet fighters fly by at the climax of the national anthem. For one moment I felt the goosebumps of national unity run down my spine and arms. But as the hats were placed back on our heads, it was green vs. blue. Go Eagles!!!!

Some highlights....
1. A guy a few rows ahead of us threw up and cleared out his whole row. There was outright pandemonium, people cursing up a storm. This guys was actually arrested and kicked out of the stadium for throwing up. He was probably drunk, but I kinda felt bad for him. He wasted his $100 ticket.

2. TO, TO, TO ........... for those of you who know football, you understand this.

3. Tara Reid was at the game. She was in a BOx behind us, and people were throwing their shirts and eagles jersey to her for her to sign. I don't think this makes any sense. Why would you want Tara Reid's sign on your Mcnabb jersey? Some say she was here because she is dating Jeremy Shockey... hahahaha... he sucked it up big time. Tara... you're boy is a dud.

4. I think 60% of the people at the game were drunk. Fights were breaking out, cursing everywhere, etc. I guess there are some reasons to stay home for the game.

5. Had some drinks at the ritz with some friends. For drinking cranberry tonics, I was accused of drinking girly drinks. I like em....
and then was attacked and accused of being too too picky when it comes to girls. I thought about this.... hmmmm... am I? I guess the reason they might think that is because, I don't really see a point in dating someone if I know I'd rather date somebody else. Chemistry is so important, and you can't fake that kinda stuff. She doesn't have to be a super model, she doesn't have to be a harvard grad, doesn't have to even be that taleneted.... but she's gotta have the right set of ingredients...
gosh... i'm gay. i'll shut up.

9/11

2004-09-11T10:59:00.000-04:00

So I have a friend here in Philly whose birthday is today. Can you imaginine that?
For the remainder of history, the day of celebration for this person will be forever remembered atrocious evil and sadness.

Becky... Great Run

2004-09-09T22:57:00.000-04:00

Mrs. Becky Kim...
Thanks for all your hardwork all these years.
Never stop leading....
Never stop praising...
You're too good at it.
:)
God bless.

Beating Myocyte

2004-09-08T13:43:00.000-04:00

Watching a beating myocyte (heart cell) gets real boring real quick. Sometimes, I watch it beat and since its being paced at 1Hz or 60 beats/sec I start to beat box and sings songs to the beat. Is this not the joy of life? Turning even the most boring activity to an eventful one.

2004-09-08T08:46:00.000-04:00

So I met an attractive personon the bus this morning... She was cool, quite attractive, and very nice.
"Are you a student?", I ask.
"Sure... I'm a pharmacy student.", she says.
-wow... smart too..
-Lord... have you provided alas?
"Oh wait, I have a phone call. Hold on one second.", she says.
"Hey Honey, how are you? Yeah, I'm on the bus."
-No!!!!!!!
-No!!!!!!!

-The rest is history folks. Well... I continue on my quest for female companionship.
If it were as easy as asking, "Are you my wife?" It reminds me of the duck who went around asking, " Are you my mother?". If life were only that easy.

2004-09-06T18:48:00.000-04:00

Today was a day of tennis and fellowship....
I played three sets of tennis with my pastor and another guy from my church...
Victory for Albert today!!! It definitely felt good.
My pastor cooked us up some steak tips and shared the story of his romance with his wife. He's 29 and his wife is 26... and they have three kids. Wow....
They were married at 24 and 21. Many of us would think that its too early to marry at that age, but ya know... if I met the right person... I definitely think earlier is better than later. Their kids are precious, and it definitely was in God's intention for each person to have somebody special to share each other's life with.

Well... hope you all enjoyed your labor day weekend.
I'm outtie.

2004-09-05T23:43:00.000-04:00

For those who've been watching the US open...
I must say its been quite an exciting set of matches. The power of Roddick... the finesse of Federer...
the sick manliness of mauresmo, the little train that could spirit of Henin Hardine... the boyish spunkiness of Hewitt. This Open has defintely had a flavor much more distinguished than previous ones. Maybe tennis will have a comeback and produce the same national fervor it once had with Connors and Mcenroe. We'll have to see...
Oddly enough, this is the first time I've had a chance to watch alot of the matches in awhile... and I must say I started to wonder whether I would have been able to make it into the pros. Would it have been possible for me to hit the pros if I had just focused on tennis and not on school. Although 5'7", 165lbs ... a person of my physique could have some advantages on tour... hehehe ... what I do not know.
I wish just for one match I'd be able to turn to a crowd of thousands in a huge stadium and take a bow for an athletic performance. Something tells me that it would be much more fulfilling than getting my name published in a medical journal.
Well... I'm sure God has chosen the right fate for me. :)

2004-09-03T09:16:00.000-04:00

Completely man and yet completely God...
A deity embodied in the frailties of flesh...
When you came, you had mercy on us...
Your blood continues to cover a multitude of sins... which many our mine.
Jesus .... I praise you.

2004-09-01T20:11:00.000-04:00

These are such trying times for me. I always thought that I was a very patient person. I've dealt with rude people, inconsiderate ones, and the like... but rearing a 16 year old boy 24/7 has been a tremendoulsy trying time. As a 26 year old dude, I am forced to sacrifice much of my freedom and free time, to take care of a boy who possessed by many of the rebellions of puberty, takes me for granted. Sometimes, I literally want to take my own life or run away and just forget about everything else. But... I press on....
God will provide and strengthen me as I go through this trial... and of course... I love my brother very very much.

2004-09-01T12:31:00.000-04:00

hmmmm.....
I'm very tempted to skip out of this place early and play some golf....
hmmmm.....
What to do... What to do...

2004-08-27T12:47:00.000-04:00

I realize that I am getting old. Today, I was raving about the beauty of Tiger Wood's driver shot, the incongruencies of Vijay Singh's and etc. Other friends of mine then joined into the discussion enthusiastically. Before you knew it, there was a huge debate about golf and its methods. I wouldn't have ever thought it... but its happened. I am excited about golf. wow....
Also... congrats to all who have been able to come out to morning prayer fest for the past 20 days. It has been truly blessing and life altering. Who knew that prayer could make such a difference in a congregation. I see it, and I am still continually being 'wow'd. Of course, for much of the prayer time I was playing keyboard, but I developed a skill of praying and playing at the same time. hehehe... ocassionally, I'd lose concentration from getting into prayer and make some funky dissonant noises on keyboard. Sorry to those who witnessed.
Also... for those who have been helping me with my guitar hunt.... YES... I have finally purchased one. Taylor 414 CE for 1460. I couldn't find a better price and it sounds like butter.
Yeah baby yeah..... This is definitely a guitar with a litta bita mojo.

2004-08-07T19:49:00.000-04:00

Watched a Korea movie today called, "SilMiDo". It's based on a true story about 31 convicts relegated to death by execution, but saved to be banded into a group of trained military assasins. Their purpose of training was to infiltrate North Korea and kill KimIlSung. However, after orders from above declared the abortion of their mission, the authorities of the convict assasins were ordered to kill the convicts. In hearing this, the convicts revolted and killed off their superiors and made one last attempt to go to Seoul and kill the political perpetrators who ordered their termination. They were stoped by military and were forced to commit suicide by gernade.
They wrote their names with their own blood on the walls of the bus they stole to go into Seoul, so that they would be remembered.... as patriots... not convicts.
Good movie.

2004-08-03T10:15:00.000-04:00

Last night, my mother, my sister, and I went to see the movie 'Notebook'. And a verse that I started to ponder about was, "The Lord does not look at the things man looks at. Man looks at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart.'" -- 1 Samuel 16:7 . Why would I think of this verse during a disgustingly sappy chick flick you might ask.
Well, the thing is .... many people talk about how looks and physical attraction are not very important in a relationship. They often site this verse and say how outward appearances are deceptive and etc. However, as I watched the movied 'Notebook' I couldn't help but think that the passion we see in such movies between a man and a woman are fueled much by physical attraction. The partners in the relationship depicted in this film fight all the time, have nothing in common, and yet as the movie says, "they were crazy about each other". Yes, I agree, that many times that this type of relationship is usually engaged by the wrong feelings and emotions, but I think that such deep passionate feelings are not just physical, but are also about chemistry. You know that feeling that you get when you're near that person. The tightening stomach, the perspiration, the inability to think straight....
I believe these things can be from God. However, in order to ensure this, we must stay in close communion with God to align our passions for the opposite sex in a divine light. For indeed, a man's or woman's appeal and physical allure is accentuated manifold by his/her Godliness and Grace.

2004-08-02T12:29:00.000-04:00

As many of you know, my mother has been here for the past few weeks. Its been great to have her around. Although she has single handedly stymied my ability to drink soft drinks, eat greasy foods, etc.... I can't help but realize that she's a precious person. As I get older, I realize that we don't have forever on earth. One day, God will take those we love, and us as well. I have been inspired more and more these days to focus and spoil the people that I love and cherish. Only the Lord knows how much time I have left to show my mother just how much I love her. Lets stop telling ourselves we have time to love people. Lets not be procrastinators of love... we may end up having to cram later on and failing the exam of life. :)

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2004-07-18T00:34:00.000-04:00

This week i was privileged enough to attend the purpose driven worship conference in lake forest, Ca. It was being held at Saddleback Church. It was amazing... I learned so much from Matt Redman, Chris Tomlin, Martin Smith, Tiago, Rick Muchow, and paul baloche. They gave great workshops and awesome concerts at night. As a worship leader, an artist, and christian brother, I feel transformed and renewed to pursue a purpose driven life of worship and service to the Lord. I'll post pictures and video soon... I'll also give details about my trip later.
I'm so tired....

2004-06-19T20:39:00.000-04:00

Do you guys know what "jjak" sarang is? ( Just to make sure there is no misconception... NO! I am not talking about myself right now. I actually wish I was... its better to love alone than to not at all.. but anyways) Three of my friends have recently shared to me their heart wrenching stories of unreciprocated love. Its amazing how some people could be so in love with another individual, and yet the other party not feeling the tiniest bit in return. Well, "its okay", I tell them. If you get rejected, its God's way of leading your path to the right person. Be bold and follow your convictions, I tell my brothers. Sisters... if a brother pours his heart out, be honest with him. If you see no future at all, tell him so. If he's a real man, he'll be able to take the pain. He'll get over it. Don't give false notions of hope. A man in love will cling to the most miniscule portions of possibility. Remember dumb and dumber... the girl said, " one in a million" and the guy said, " so there is a chance!". As dumb as that sounds, its a reality for many men. Ahh... the eternal chase of man for woman. The unending story of cat and mouse. Anyways....

2004-06-11T12:55:00.000-04:00

What is going on? I was just waiting and waiting for the Lakers to put it together... but to no avail. What were they thinking? Kobe had 11 points. Shaq had 14. I can't believe it? Is this some conspiracy to increase the ratings. Are the Pistons just too fast? I'm starting to get a bit worried. We'll see saturday night. If Lakers win one in Mo-town, its over nevertheless.

2004-05-04T19:27:00.000-04:00

I realize that I want to be good at too many things, and that eventually I'll just be mediocre at alot of things. So... I've decided to make some choices.....

clinical vs. basic science research conc. ---- clinical
korean mastery vs. spanish------ korean mastery
piano and guitar mastery vs. drums,bass, etc. --- piano and guitar mastery

2004-05-04T19:04:00.000-04:00

I think I feel a great freedom....... Some great news has come my way, and for some reason, it has liberated me incredibly. I didn't realize how bad I felt about somethings in my life.
Hmmm... well anyways... see ya lataz
....

FREEDOM

2004-04-26T17:35:00.000-04:00

Research is so political.... why can't we all get along...aiyaya...

2004-04-25T23:07:00.000-04:00

I dont' understand why I can't let go of basketball for just a few months. My ankles need to recover, but I keep falling to temptation and playing. I just exacerbate their condition and because of their weakness, I don't perform up to my potential. I need to stop. i really need to.
I'm gonna stop. This is the last draw.

2004-04-22T23:16:00.000-04:00

As I was working out today... I realized that I have an extremely disproportionate body. I have a long torso, big chest, short legs, and a big butt. Sure... you might think this is a typical body of a Korean male, but I think I'm a bit extreme. I think my torso belongs on someone at least five foot ten, and my legs are probably shorter than a guy who's five three. Ah... average it out... and alas my height, five foot seven ( if you're being nice). I think its beause of the intense leg workouts I went through growing up. Some of you might not believe it, but I used to leg press around 800 lbs. I was a twelve letter varsity winner who could run the mile in about 4 minutes and 30 seconds. I was short, but my legs were strong enough to carry three people. After college, my fitness deteriorated. Study and not enough exercise put me into weight fluctuations that went to a nearly 200 lb extreme. I remember I lost like thirty pounds in one summer once. How unhealthy I was...... sigh. Now, I'm stuck in a borderline state. Do I get back in shape? Work out for life?
Hmmm.... I ithink I should. And this huge butt I have..... hmmm... I think this is just genetic. Do you like big butts and you cannot lie? I'm you're man... :) I don't know why God gave me such an enormouse gluteus maximus. To crack walnuts? Probably not.... Well.... I know people are paying surgeons for butt implants right now.... maybe I can just give them some of my butt. I think I have enough butt for at least five girls and three guys.

2004-04-19T15:23:00.000-04:00

Its funny how easy it is to sound smart in front of scientists when you really don't know what you're talking about. I had to give a presentation today, and I really didn't know any of the answers to the questions they were asking. I just used my imagination, and said things like, " most studies have shown that it is controversial", and everyone thought I was great.
I have truly mastered the disguise of enigmatic resolution. Confidence and a knowledgeble demeanor go a long way in science. Its scary... but I think most doctors go about their practice in this way too. I hope I don't. People's lives are a bit more important than molecular biology dogma.

2004-04-14T23:31:00.000-04:00

I hate rain.

2004-04-12T19:15:00.000-04:00

i need to stop playing basketball. I love it so much, I play regardless of the fact that I have torn ligaments in bnoth ankles. I need to take a one month basketball hiatus at least. I keep telling myself this, but cannot resist the temptation. This time is different thought... I need to get better. I cannot ever be 100% better until I stop.

2004-04-12T01:29:00.000-04:00

Happy Easter friends....
Although, the fast from the past four days has kind of made me sicker, I rejoice and am so happy. The fast was truly effective in allowing me to concentrate on Christ this weekend. Thank You Lord.

2004-04-09T13:43:00.000-04:00

On this day let us remember the wounds that were inflicted, and the punishment that was given. If there is any pain, any tribulation, or any sorrow in your life, remember that you deserved much worse. Jesus took on our deserved punishment. Let us be strong as Jesus was on this day.

2004-04-08T22:19:00.000-04:00

Its almost Good Friday. How desensitized are we of what Christ really did for us on that cross. Alot of people think that fasting during passion week is a little extreme or unnecessary. I agree and disagree. I feel that if you can concentrate on Him, without it, thats fine. However, i think for me. The panging hunger of not eating for three days will help me to realize the reality of Christ's sacrifice.
Thank you Jesus for all you've done.

2004-04-06T11:41:00.000-04:00

I may be the unluckiest person ever to live. I got pulled over a couple of days ago because I didn't have my registration sticker on my plate. No problem if you have your reg. in your car, but I didn't. I had taken it out while cleaning my car a couple of days before that. So, I begged the officer to be nice for about thirty minutes only for him to give me a 100 dollar ticket. Well.... although a pain, it wasn't a big deal. He said I could get it nullified if I showed registration at the traffic court the next day. so today, i drove there and alas there was absolutely no parking around the traffic court. i thought... hmmm.... i'll take a chance and park with my hazards on. I go in and get my previous ticket nullified only to come out and see that I got a parking ticket. Arggh...... I got to my car at 10:12 and the ticket was written for 10:10.
I went to get one ticket nullified only to get another ticket. This is how the police system of america works. Those fat donut eating officers..... oh well. I'd normally fight this parking ticket, but i'm getting too old. I'll just pay the 20 dollars.

2004-04-06T00:19:00.000-04:00

teaching is definitely a blessing.....
I finished one of my mcat classes today. Some of my students brought me presents.... wow... its like korean style. hmm... maybe i'm a better teacher than i thought.
Well... to all you mcat'ers ... it'll be over in two short weeks. Keep studying hard and be calm.
adios....

2004-04-05T01:14:00.000-04:00

Bommy is taller... and seems a little less naive. (hehehehe.....) she seems much more an adult. I think she'd actually get into a club without getting carded now.
hahaha

So what do bommy, me, jacob, and his girfriend talk about at baja fresh..... about who pays for a wedding... guy or girl. Girls say 1/2 an 1/2....
I dont' mind that... actually I don't mind paying for everything, if my wife really needed the help, but tradition is tradition. Guys provide the house and the car and thehoneymoon... girl's pay for the wedding. If I was a father, and I didn't ahve alot of money, I'd still give up everything so my when i send my daughter off ... that she'd feel like a princess... which of course she will be. Dont' you agree ladies. Tell your dads to start saving up. I think its worth it. you only get married once... well thats not true for alot of people lately... but as christians we should be idealistic and think... once and last time. Amen?

Today I though about that song by Sheryll Crow... the first cut is the deepest. ... It is.... so I understand. I'm just too idealistic. I know that you're a nice girl. I know you're a sweet person. ... but now I know you can't be like that to me. I'll remember you as you once were.
Well, I guess this is it. I hope God blesses you abundantly. Goodnite.

2004-04-04T01:31:00.000-05:00

Bommy the Clown will be in the house tomorrow. I'm curious to see how she's been doing.... I wonder how old she looks now. hehehe

A passing thought... I realize that I'm the type of guy that trys so hard for everybody to like him. I want everybody to be happy. I can't stand the thought of people being upset with me or having ill feelings towards me. I guess thats why I've always held in my frustration and anger in when people have treated me in ways that they know would be hurtful. Even when I know I was not wrong, I've been the person who says its my fault anyway, just to alleviate the conflict or hurt of other people. However, God has given me the ability to turn my heart away from such things. He has allowed me to take care of myself too... to "not care" so much anymore. He has shown me that God must do the work in people, and not necessarily in me. Live your life, be happy, and leave the past as is. Don't try to resort or regain what you've given. Friend... let it be, let it pass, and forget.

2004-04-03T11:35:00.000-05:00

I've always been bad at keeping in touch with friends. but I realize that now is the time to cherish your true friends, so that you can continue to have relationship in the future.
Lost friends who I've been ignoring.... I'm coming to get you.

2004-03-30T10:28:00.000-05:00

To truly love is to forgive.

2004-03-30T10:27:00.000-05:00

Words from M. Teresa :

A clean heart is a free heart. A free heart can love Christ with an undivided love in chastity, convinced that nothing and nobody will separate it from his love. Purity, chastity, and virginity created a special beauty in Mary that attracted God�s attention. He showed his great love for the world by giving Jesus to her.

There is a terrible hunger for love. We all experience that in our lives - the pain, the loneliness. We must have the courage to recognize it. The poor you may have right in your own family.
Find them.
Love them.

Before you speak, it is necessary for you to listen, for God speaks in the silence of the heart.

Give yourself fully to God. He will use you to accomplish great things on the condition that you believe much more in His love than in your own weakness.

Speak tenderly to them. Let there be kindness in your face, in your eyes, in your smile, in the warmth of your greeting. Always have a cheerful smile. Don't only give your care, but give your heart as well.

The more you have, the more you are occupied, the less you give. But the less you have the more free you are. Poverty for us is a freedom. It is not mortification, a penance.
It is joyful freedom. There is no television here, no this, no that. But we are perfectly happy.

I pray that you will understand the words of Jesus, �Love one another as I have loved you.� Ask yourself �How has he loved me? Do I really love others in the same way?� Unless this love is among us, we can kill ourselves with work and it will only be work, not love. Work without love is slavery.

Little things are indeed little, but to be faithful in little things is a great thing.

A sacrifice to be real must cost, must hurt, must empty ourselves. The fruit of silence is prayer, the fruit of prayer is faith, the fruit of faith is love, the fruit of love is service, the fruit of service is peace.

2004-03-26T00:41:00.000-05:00

Joe Chen, Jacob, James Ha, Vic Lee, and I got together for a reunion here in philly. We had a great time, although my neighbors didn't appreciate the auditory raucous we were causing. What do you expect when you have a bunch of guys playing poker, remembering old times, laughin like hyenas....
Its times like these, that cause me to remember the true joys of life. Its about the people you care about, and the memories you have...loyolty, honor, and trust. whoah... do i sound cheesy or what...
For those of you who wish you were there ... things haven't changed much.. but here's the update.

Joe Chen is currently doing research at Pitt and will be trying to match in radiology next year following his 4th year of medical school. He's gotta lovely lady, so all you who were sweatin him... hands off. He still brings out the truth out of everything . And doesn't hesitate to tell you how it is. yOu gotta love that. " Wad up" "Wad up"
Vic P Lee is a consultant for a computer company down in glen burnie or something. He's making the big bucks and seems to be slimmer and sleeker than ever before. Although he still needs to gain about 100 lbs, he's a great guy. Drummer boy from GLC whose got the brain to match his beat. he's single... so ladies... wait in line.
Jacob.... the hottie of the crowd unfortunately is taken. However, his girlfriend is pretty fine herself. Not only does she cook well, but she has the same beautiful facial features as Jacob. (hahaha.... )
Jacob is finishing his research interim and will be finishing medical school next year, and should be matching in either optho or pmr. (But... for real jacob... how'd you get so jaded! Remember everywhere is not like NYU... hahah just kidding. I know you still got the love.)
James Ha... can i say more... he's still the nicest guy ever int he world. But... he seems to have a renewed, refreshed outlook on life that makes him even more humbling and blessing to be with. He has eyes of understanding ......James... Jamez...
Thanks for hanging boyz.... next year.. probably in NY or chicago... aight!
Oh and next year I'll finish the job I started... taking all your money in poker. This time I'll pull out when I want... JK.

Peace out.

2004-03-20T00:08:00.000-05:00

Did you ever notice that the state of your heart is revealed so candidly when you're under pressure. When you're stressed, does the grace and wisdom of Christ bubble out ofyou?
Why is it that Christian guys act like jerks on the basketball court? How do you act when you're supposed life establishing moment arrives? Is your anger stemming from your own selfish and sinful desires?
Some random questions I thought about.....

2004-03-19T11:01:00.000-05:00

congrats to all those who matched yesterday. What an exhilirating feeling it must be... to have your future path delineated in a single instance....
Edmund... congrats on IM in philly...God couldn't keep us separated for very long.
Joe Park... RAd at LOYOLA.... its gotta be good. You'll be able to 'moshu' your parents... :)
Wah.... DUKE... thats awesome...
Joe MCg.... RAd at STanford... congrats.. you're sick.
Let's be doctors...Peace out.

2004-03-18T11:18:00.000-05:00

Could it be that I'll be on vacation? I dont' even know what that means? The last 5 spring breaks of my life, I have ... yes don't condemn me as a loser.... "studied". Freshman year of college, I studied for Orgo during spring break. Sophomore year, I studied for Thermo 2. Junior year, I studied for phys found. Senior year, I studied for the MCAt intensely. Masters year, I went to DC for a day... but that doesn't count. Who goes to DC for spring break anyway? Every year of medical school, I have studied during spring break like a big fat nerd. But alas, I am changing my life. Work hard .... and then reward yourself by playing hard. Life is too short to be "all work and no play". This year... I'm gonna be crazy. I'm gonna go to St. Petersburg with my brother. I will finally lay my feet in crystal clear waters and soak in the sun as I wade in "sugar" esque sand. Revive my soul ... Oh Lord. :) What about the money people might ask? When there is a will there is a way..... Its about squeezing 3 dollars out of a dollar. Its about eating carrots for dinner instead of sushi.... its about denying yourself the simple pleasures of life to provide yourself with a great one. If you wanna come along give me a call....

2004-03-17T18:24:00.000-05:00

Living with and rearing a sixteen year old brother is no easy task. He's messy, lazy, inconsiderate, and ignorant. He never listens to me. Whatever I say goes in one ear and out the other. He doesn't achieve what I know he can achieve. He sets his standards too low. The very patience and character that God has instilled in me as I grew up is tested to its max on a daily basis.... even a minute by minute basis. I am continually challenged to love more that I ever thought I could. Moments where I want to be angry and start banging things, I resist by the grace of God. The weaknesses of my being are revealed by our conflicts. I cannot pursue anything.... for the responsibility of a brother, parent, and guardian are conglomerated on my plate of tasks. Why such a burden on me Lord? Perhaps I am being prepared for something great?

2004-03-16T01:23:00.000-05:00

I am a new creation...

2004-03-14T00:46:00.000-05:00

Candidate for KUCP-GCF ministry : Pastor Alex Choi

-Father... we are in dire need of direction and shepherding. Do not let our desire for leadership to sway our decision from one to another. May you be the author of all that we decide. May your will be done, may your kingdom come as on earth as it is in heaven.

2004-03-13T11:01:00.000-05:00

Although many would deny it, we all encounter the demons of depression. They loom into your life when you least suspect it. You could have all the things in the world and yet, they come and tell you that you are worthless, that you have nothing to offer to this world. They say you look too fat, too skinny; you're too pretty, you're too ugly; you're too short; you're too tall. Even the most lauded and coveted individuals will find themselves fighting the temptation to end their lives. Stop and remember that life starts and is sustained by the fact that Christ has paid the price. Cut off those chains that you have placed on yourself, and run free knowing that you are redeemed. Life is a gift and don't put an undue pressure on yourself to redeem your value; for God has paid the price and you are redeemed to your fullest. If you believe it... please... live like it. Don't think of killing yourself again.

2004-02-26T23:03:00.000-05:00

Our praise team went on a retreat last week and enjoyed a great time of revelation and spirited commitment to a new year of worship. If you're also a praise team member somewhere in the world, maybe this list of goals/vision will help your worship team. Keep up the good work brothers and sisters. He hears us!

WORSHIP TEAM 2004-05 VISION/GOALS

1.Focusing our Worship on Him

1. A team that is God centered not Self-centered.
2. Not just musical excellence, but spiritual encouragers. We must be worshipping and focusing on Him during worship to instill encouragement to the congregation to worship.
3. Guard ourselves from different temptations through prayer and being faithful to the word.
4. A team that promotes worship, not just on Sunday.
5. Take out Ego� its all about God. Take feedback and correction with God in mind and not yourself.

6. That we could worship in a personal way even when leading others into worship.
7. A team that is grounded in the word both personally and as a group.

2.Doing our very best for His Kingdom

1. A team that works hard to exalt Him and not ourselves.
2. A team that is musically non-distracting.
3. A team that doesn�t limit itself. That seeks great praise for the Lord.
4. A team that is dedicated to preparation out of respect for our God.
5. Take out Ego� its all about God. Take feedback and correction with God in mind and not yourself.

3.Love one another sincerely.

1. A team that keeps each other accountable.
2. A team that encourages one another with honesty, understanding, and care.
3. A team that deeply loves one another.

2004-02-25T22:54:00.000-05:00

A friend of mine said , that we should appreciate what Mel is doing for the minsitry of Jesus Christ despite his traditionalist catholic stance. I wasn't sure at first, but I agree. God can use this movie to stir the hearts of millions upon millions. The fact that Mel believes that his wife is in danger of going to hell is peculiar to me. For those of you who do not know, Mel is a traditionalist catholic who believes that only catholics will go to heaven. A few facts about catholicism that others might not know: there is a difference between traditionalist roman catholicism and the other catholic churches you see around today. Most non traditionalist catholic churches set out the concept of the "anonymous christian" in the Vatican II meeting. This meeting declared that non-christians who know nothing about Christ have the ability to go to heaven. A person who lives the life of a christian can go to heaven despite their lack of acceptance of Jesus as their savior.
Its complicated and complex ..... its kinda scary too. Who goes to heaven and who doesn't? Well... I choose to concentrate on what is indisputably known from the Gospels.... that Jesus was God and that if you put your trust in Him you will be saved.. So lets just concentrate on what's state, and stop peddling with new dogma.

16"For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son,[1] that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.

2003-10-14T22:36:00.000-04:00

For those in the medical profession or those who are arduously studying to be involved in such a field, take heart. Think.... even if only one life were saved... one life totally affected by the God given knowledge you've accumulated... wouldn't that be enough to justify all your work, and all your sacrifice. Truly, we are given the opportunity to give as God does.

2003-10-14T17:48:00.000-04:00

I probably don't have any readers anymore, due to my longstanding abstinence. But I thought it was time to restart my blog regardless of that fact.

2003-04-22T16:38:00.000-04:00

:)
Peace be with you all.

2003-04-18T15:51:00.000-04:00

Our worship team had a footwashing service. Truly humbling and blessing. Worship team members are servants not performers. They need to be the first to wash the feet of others. We are not leading the congregation into a nice ensemble of catchy melodies. We are serving them and worshiping with them for an audience of one. Fellow worship memebers, do not lose sight of what worship is. Truly... its not about great music. Its about the humility, servanthood, and yearning hearts of the people of God, and this starts with the worship team. Good music is nice.... but that isn't what turns the tide of hardened hearts.

John 13

2003-04-17T17:58:00.000-04:00

happy b-day kook...
check my pics on my pic site.

Happy B-day Kook!

2003-03-09T23:48:00.000-05:00

Father you know my ways. Make them straight. Let them not stray from the lighted path.
May my hands feel the wounded hands of my Lord. May I recognize Him at the garden, and fall at His feet. May I submit my every fear. May you alone be my fulfillment.

2003-03-09T22:04:00.000-05:00

Let God show you your destiny. It's as easy as that.... let God do everything. Don't force anything. God will make it known to you in the timeliness of his divine sovereignty.

2003-03-09T01:23:00.000-05:00

Before I knew Your name

You knew my every breath

Before I found my way

You knew my every step

Before I knew everything that I need

You gave it all to me

No greater love than this

That You should lay down Your life

For someone such as me

I'd spend a lifetime wondering why

The beauty of heaven is here in my heart

And I know there can be no greater love...

than this

I never understood how merciful love could be

Until I felt His flame light every part of me

And I would give everything that I am

'Cause I have been saved

Yes I have been saved

2003-03-08T01:48:00.000-05:00

Eek!

2003-03-06T23:44:00.000-05:00

You'd be surprised how a little bit of love and understanding can change another's life.

You'd also be suprised how a little bit of anger and bitterness can change another's life.

2003-03-06T01:21:00.000-05:00

Love Divine

To love means not to tether another's wings together and deprive them the sky, nor is it to weigh them down by binding them with chains by your side. But it is to open a treasure chest in your heart where your loved one may rest when she is tired and must find peace amidst her weary quest. It is this rest she finds that will allow her to rise with strength above the sky to show her wondrous flight.
Although she may fly to weary distances, out of your sight and touch... her beating heart that gives her life will return with strength and confidence.

Bruised and distraught lover, do not dismay. Do not let your tears of loss strip your heart of hope. For the hearts of destiny are forever, and their divine blessed union cannot be separated by any trespass of man, or any obstacle of time. Close your eyes and let faith guide you on your journey, for two pieces of one heart will return to its glorious completion once again.

- ASJ

2003-03-04T01:23:00.000-05:00

Life is too precious to be spent on worrying about things we cannot control. The time God has alotted to us is so meticulously planned, that all we must do is follow through, and just do what he commands. Glorify him and enjoy him forever. This is all that God has commanded us to do. Don't water it down with anything else. The sovereign God of all creation didn't put out any quotas on you. Stop thinking about the world and how it sees you, and just see how enjoyable and peaceful your life can be when you just leave everything in the hand of Jesus. Oh if we could just sleep peacefully amidst the storm as Jesus did. We can! Just chose to believe, and this peace can be yours.

" I will abide in you, if you abide in me" - God

2003-02-03T20:56:00.000-05:00

On a visit to Boston, I noticed a parking meter with a paper bag over it that
said: "Broken." A skeptical traffic officer removed the bag, inserted a quarter
in the meter and turned the dial. It worked perfectly.

As the officer began to write a parking ticket, the car's owner rushed out of a
nearby building. "What are you doing?" he yelled after a quick glance at the
meter. "There's plenty
of time left!"

2003-02-03T00:09:00.000-05:00

I kind of like G. Bush... but I guess some of this poem is kind of true and funny.... You decide... but have a nice chuckle....

>Bush's anthem.....
>
>
>If you cannot find Osama, bomb Iraq.
>If the markets are a drama, bomb Iraq.
>If the terrorists are frisky,
>Pakistan is looking shifty,
>North Korea is too risky,
>Bomb Iraq.
>
>If we have no allies with us, bomb Iraq.
>If we think that someone's dissed us, bomb Iraq.
>So to hell with the inspections,
>Let's look tough for the elections,
>Close your mind and take directions,
>Bomb Iraq.
>
>If you never were elected, bomb Iraq.
>If your mood is quite dejected, bomb Iraq.
>If you think Saddam's gone mad,
>With the weapons that he had,
>And he tried to kill your dad,
>Bomb Iraq.
>
>If corporate fraud is growin', bomb Iraq.
>If your ties to it are showin', bomb Iraq.
>If your politics are sleazy,
>And hiding that ain't easy,
>And your manhood's getting queasy,
>Bomb Iraq.
>
>Fall in line and follow orders, bomb Iraq.
>For our might knows not our borders, bomb Iraq.
>Disagree? We'll call it treason,
>Let's make war not love this season,
>Even if we have no reason,
>Bomb Iraq.

2003-01-31T15:13:00.000-05:00

Storm:

May your big day tomorrow be joyful and calm. The Lord watches over you. You are the victor no matter what. If He is for you... who can be against you.

2003-01-30T23:43:00.000-05:00

behavioral science exam in 8 hours.....
Time to think crazy..... get in the mind set of psych patients....

2003-01-29T00:18:00.000-05:00

http://www.soundofgrace.com/piper2/piper2003/1-26-03.htm

2003-01-28T22:37:00.000-05:00

I feel such a need to pray. Please... I'm the first to say that I've been totally ignoring the world around me as I slave away at studying...
But... I listened today's state of the union address by the president. I feel that right now is a very important time for the world and the US ....
Our president made it so very clear his mission to end abortion, cloning, and pollution. Wow... I love this guy. However, I just pray for our president that he'll be wise and patient.
WE pretty much declared war on Iraq..... God help us. I was very skeptical of the need for war, but Bush kind of sold me.... I just pray that God would use Bush to make the right decisions.

I need to pray for my country more.... definitely.

2003-01-28T00:35:00.000-05:00

What a challenge! A reminder to stop cheapeaning the grace that Christ offers.
This is a part of a sermon by John Piper.... "Killing Sin"
This is a must read.....

Killing Sin Is the Result and Evidence of Justification

So the question then is why does Paul say to the church in Rome � and to Bethlehem � (verse 13) "If you are living according to the flesh, you must die; but if by the Spirit you are putting to death the deeds of the body, you will live"? The reason is this: Putting to death the deeds of the body by the Spirit � the daily practice of killing sin in your life � is the result of being justified and the evidence that you are justified by faith alone apart from works of the law. If you are making war on your sin, and walking by the Spirit, then you know that you have been united with Christ by faith alone. And if you have been united to Christ, then his blood and righteousness provide the unshakable ground of your justification.

On the other hand, if you are living according to the flesh � if you are not making war on the flesh, and not making a practice out of killing sin in your life, then there is no compelling reason for thinking that you are united to Christ by faith or that you are therefore justified. In other words, putting to death the deeds of the body is not the way we get justified, it�s one of the ways God shows that we are justified. And so Paul commands us to do it � be killing sin � because if we don�t � if we don�t make war on the flesh and put to death the deeds of the body by the Spirit � if growth in grace and holiness mean nothing to us � then we show that we are probably false in our profession of faith, and that our church membership is a sham and our baptism is a fraud, and we are probably not Christians after all and never were.

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Paul answers his own question in Romans 6:1, "How can we who died to sin still live in it?" We can�t. If we died to sin by being united with Jesus in his death, we can�t stay married to sin. The faith that unites us to Christ disunites from his competitors. The faith that makes peace with God makes war on our sin. If you are not at odds with sin, you are not at home with Jesus, not because being at odds with sin makes you at home with Jesus, but because being at home with Jesus makes you at odds with sin.

Therefore, I call you and urge you, for the sake of being God-centered, Christ-exalting, soul-winning, justice-pursuing, passion-planting, coronary Christians, don�t live according to the flesh but "by the Spirit put to death the deeds of the body." Be killing sin, or sin will be killing you.

2003-01-27T00:59:00.000-05:00

Buccaneers.... Wow....
I guess Eagles lossed for a reason.
Grueden is a genius.

2003-01-26T01:53:00.000-05:00

It was a joy to see my brother in law so happy today.
His jaw dropped when I gave him his present which was an awesomely studly leather jacket ( I wish it was mine). I then took my family out for Kalbi (My treat). Wow... I never knew kalbi was so expensive. But I was never happier... 100 dollars is nothing to see my family so happy and eating joyously together. It was a good day. Bill is 29, and yet I encouraged him... " You don't look it, so don't get depressed"
To all you who get worried about money and achievement...
never forget whats most important. (God of course)... but remember the people who love you the most.... your families.

A physician on friday told us... " Guys.... don't forget whats important.... I almost lost my family this year trying to be Joe Stud Super doctor... Its not worth it. Remember whats is most important to you."

2003-01-25T03:21:00.000-05:00

Lord.. I have so many flaws. I have so many weaknesses. I wish I could be like you. So strong...
Please make me like you..... let me be like you. That is my prayer above all prayers today.

2003-01-25T02:13:00.000-05:00

I didn't study at all tonight. It felt so good. But I feel so guilty. I studied all day and got a work out at school, and by the time I came home, I just wasn't in the mood anymore. I should study alot tomorrow. But it is Bill's birthday..... Happy birthday Bill.

2003-01-24T00:10:00.000-05:00

for insomnia....
a little bit of warm milk... and five lines of habbakuk ....
as sedating as 50 mg of benzodiazepines.

2003-01-22T23:10:00.000-05:00

I don't know Andy....
You talk so much trash...

Andy: "HYUNG! I can beat you in basketball now!!!"

Today's play ground results:

Albert vs. Andy

Game 1 : 21-2 (Albert)
Game 2: 21 - 15 (Albert)
Game 3: 21-9 (Albert)
Game 4: 9-3 (I win again by default because we both quit because it was freezing outside)

2003-01-22T12:21:00.000-05:00

Class absolutely ... sucked today.........
Man... I'm really disappointed in how these professors teach. Yeah.. sure.. you have an MD or an PhD after your name but none of you can top my second grade teacher Mrs. Dalby. Mrs. Dalby... now she knew how to teach. She didn't waste your time with things you didn't need to know. She went straight to what was pertinent.
Well... bless the late Mrs. Dalby. Ahh.. something to look forward to today. Today is a work out day. Wanna hear my regimen... Okay.... 2 mile run , 4 sets of 10 of .... LAT PULL, BICEP CURLS, BENCH, ROW PULL, TRICEP LIFTS, and of course the dreaded Abroller extension exercises. Than... I top it off with 70 pushups.
Some of you might be like... thats it? Well... I'm getting back into shape... and its pretty intense since I do it all within 40 minutes.

Remember Folks..... Mind, Body, Soul.... You are lost without one of them.
Pencil, Barbell, and most important of all..BIBLE.

2003-01-21T15:42:00.000-05:00

Today we learned about paraphilias.... If you dont' know what this is... its kind of the really odd sexual disorders you read about in the news. I must say... its kind of disturbing to hear about the weird things that people do... and it just reminds me... how much people need Jesus in their lives. I am the first to say that I will not judge these poor souls... but there are people who have sexual infatuations with females and their fecal matter. What the? Some people might say this is a person's preference... but I say that this person is in dire need of some spiritual rescue. Rape, incest, homosexuality,promiscuity, and pedophilia... these are traps that Satan has set for people who are sick... not just mentally, but spiritually. Its not about psycho-social as they teach us here in medical school.... its about psycho-spiritual. Many physicians say that the spirit is conjured by the mind... but I would beg to differ.... the spirit supports the mind, and rather the mind is a tool that the spirit uses. If you heal the spirit... the mind will heal on its own. We jump to drugs like Prozac to help these people... but what we need is to touch their souls.
Approximately %33 of woman will be sexually assaulted in their lifetime. Approximately %26 of men will be sexually assaulted in their lifetime. Its a scary place. I'm almost afraid to have children. God help us.

2003-01-20T23:21:00.000-05:00

Tomorrow I'm being tested on a lot of stuff... but interestingly I'm also being tested on migraine headaches. Caffeine overdose can contribute to an onset of a migraine headache... but acute doses of caffeine can actually relieve the pulsating pain of migraines. If your pain isn't too bad you should use excedrin ( which has aspirin, acetaminophen, and caffeine in it). If its really bad.. you might want to get a prescription and get ergotamine or Cafergot. These drugs are sertonin receptor and adrenergic receptor agonists that cause cerebral blood vessels to dilate. Sumatriptan is a bit more selective with less side effects so thats a good one too.
But the best way to treat a migraine is to prevent one. So... stop having severe changes in sleep pattern ( oops),
find ways to relieve that stress, avoid extreme environmental changes, and of course... they usually come with the menstrual cycle for some unlucky people. If it comes when you have your menstrual cycle.... thats a tough one to fight.